Start breathing..
I've been to hell and back.
I've been to torture and survived through it.
Finally finished all my exam papers and all I could say is that I've underestimated it. Not that I have not put enough effort in it, I've never ever do my revision under such overwhelming stress level before. Like I have started my revision like 1.5 months in advance, organized group study after class at 5pm until the librarian started chasing us out at 10pm, went to SzY's place for group study from 1pm till 6am. Yes, you did not read wrongly, that's how much effort we all have put in.
It turns out that the outcome is not what I have expected with the amount of effort I've put in. It's hard for me to recall what I've actually done this few days but I have no regrets like at all. The only regret is that my mom did not give birth to me with a larger memory capacity, I have forgotten every single lil thing that I've revised one month ago. It sucks big time. It sucks big time knowing that you have tried your very best, really really tried your best in doing all revision and upon receiving and reading the exam paper, all you feel like doing is run to a lamp post and bang hard.
This berating on myself mainly comes from the CF paper, the last paper I have sit just now. Just by thinking of it makes me feel like crying. Really, if I am able to materialise the amount of regret, I'll say it's almost the same as losing RM1000. So upon reading the paper, I've been struggling and looking for the question that's from the same planet that I come from. My expectation level drops to the minimum, from getting a distinction straight to a pathetic 35 pass. That's how tough the paper was. I've been struggling throughout the paper, moving my pen from 4pm until 7pm, and did 5 questions. I was still worrie that I might not get a pass. When the time is up, I turned to my left and saw my friend filling in only 4 question numbers, and I thought "Owh shit, why didn's she try even if she don't know? It's such a waste of marks". And I sat there waiting for the examiner to collect my paper. Right after that, I went out and realised that I have to answer 4 questions only. This sucks big time. I almost cry on the spot. I did not know the answer for question 1 but I thought I should just simply answer it, at least I will get some marks for the workings. So I just tried. This is the biggest mistake that I've done cos we only need to answer 4 questions. I answered 1,2,3,4,6. You say die or not this time? And worse, I've wrote two pages for the question 6 so I'm pretty confident that I'll get at least 15 out of the 25 marks. Now I'm pretty confident that I will be back for the referral during August. Damn it. I've never feel tat I'm such trash like I feel right now. Damn emo.
Anyway, just for future reference when I get the result.
Okay, Ewen, for FA, you did not balance your consolidated balance sheet. Your CFS is okay for sure. But let's see, your theory part was okay okay cos I don't remember anything from it right now.
For your Audit, sucks to the big time again cos you spent a whole week trying to figure out the answers for the past year questions and when you were answering it, you realise your brain is already dead, resulting from the excessive readings the previous night, or would I say morning?
For your MA, surprisingly, the pre-exam revision worked out pretty well. This I would say is the best subject that you did, based on the exam paper that you've did. All thanks to Mister Soh Kean Yew (I wrote full name as it is one sort of respect), our MA part time lecturer who is definitely better than Mister Fan. Without you, I don't think I'll complete and fill up all the answers, not leaving any with blanks. I owe u big time.
For your TTP, sucky again cos the day before exam, worst happen, by that I mean your bloody period. Zero revision done cos you seriously can't even sit straight and need to swallow painkillers to ease your pain. This painkillers might has made you blur and lose your concentration to a certain extent so all those readings 1.5 months ago have been officially a waste right now. You did not remember a single thing. You were feeling so bad during exam cos your uterus is trying to play a fool out of you, which explains why you come out an hour earlier before the exam ended.
For your CF, prepare for referral please. The day before the exam you were having major headache, might be the side effects of the painkillers, I ain't sure. I just wish that Mister Kenneth will notice that I bu xiao xin answered question 1, please mark my question 6 instead of 1. I don't want to be back during August!!!
Anyway, other than studies. Let's talk about something else. This wil be a long post cos I don't know, there's a lot that I want to vent out. So Patrick and Melly is actually one thing right now, officially, which gave me the biggest shock of the month. No you two did not freak me out, it's just that I am pretty stupid to not realise anything before the announcement on facebook.
So, I've sent my Internship Application to HSBC earlier, just tried one company and I was prompted for an interview. Few days later I was informed that they need an intern for their website designing and asked how good am I. I know that I'm not really good, just know the basics and I was frank and told them that. Awaiting for reply but don't think I really gna work? Dno. Lots of issue.
So, today was the last day of exam and I'm officially in a holiday right now, for 4 freaking months. I will be staying here for 10 days more, for trips to Penang or Malacca maybe, which is subject to changes cos I think we're still in the planning stage. Just wish things will work through. Cos if it's not, what's the use for me to stay till June when I came shake my bumbum and say bye maybe tmr? So after the CF exam, went to Puchong for ShabuShabu. A very creative way of serving food I'd say. Will attach picture soon, maybe tmr cos if I am to upload pictures again I'll take forever to update my blog. Then right after that joined Pei, WanYen, Wendy, VoonVoon and Diana for Night at the Museum 2. Bloody funny. Loving it =)
So, today is Pei's birthday and to my dahhhhhhhhhhhhlengggggg. Happy big 2 zero. Sounds old to me right now but guess I'll join you next year to the big 2 zero club. Huggiehugs. Rou ma de hua I'll tell you next time cos I'm in a hurry in finishing up this post cos I've been writing non stop and it's 5.29am right now. I many cheng yi de hoooooo
So, I've been the KaiMa of owh-so-cute Louis, the offspring of A&W for almost one week cos the mama went to Thailand. Damn cute I'd say. Post picture next time.
So, I've been to Astro's recording for three or four times already for the shooting of the ASQ 09. Just feel like getting involve more in things like this instead of balancing and checking some people's accounts. But I have to be a bitch if I wna be someone popular in their circle so I think it's better not to be involved as well. I hate troubles.
So, what's next? Owh well, 10 days more. What to do?
1. Go Cheras Night Market.
2. Spend the RM50 cash voucher from Padini.
3. Go Broga Hill, I wonder if the promise is still kept? Hmm. I wonder.
4. Go Sing K sing till I drop.
5. Go play badminton till noone's gna say I'm fat.
So, back to Bru, what to do?
Options
1. Find a job.
2. Go paktoh everyday and be a queen at home.
3. Go eat till I turn fair fair fat fat.
4. Go exercise till I become 36, 24, 35. Kiampui. Shrug the stomach off.
5. Be a brilliant driver.
Ignore my english vocab, sentence structure and spellings for this post.
I'm typing using Primary 4 student's english standard. Judge me.
Hahahahaha
Tell me how did you do for your papers people
Bah. I keesiao already. Nights.