Ewen has got a job!

Hey Ewen. Long time no see. It's been so long that I have not talked to you. I think at times, I really forgot about your existence. I'm sorry but I am always reluctant to settle down and think about my thoughts. I understand that my thoughts on my thoughts will actually make me a better person but impatience has overridden any wise thought that I thought I should have thought.

Anyway, I have not leave a trace in this world for the past few months. I want people to at least have a reference when one day in the future someone wanted to write a bibliography on me. HAHAHA. So I guess now noone really reads this blog anymore right? You know, I'm a weird bitch. I wanted to write sth emotional and very private but at the same time, I don't want too much people to know what I've been thinking. So how low is the readership now? If I see no respond on the chatbox, I guess I can actually have a public blog that is uberly private.

Okay, I am not making any sense now *slap face*

It's past mid 2010, and it's Aug already. I am an adult now. I mean, I feel like an adult. I've drove around myself, I started working and bringing my own bread home. After studying my ass off for my final final exam, have some fun over with friends that I spent my three years in KL, packed my mostest funnest phase of my life in a 30kg luggage and super heavy box, I came back to this place where I should feel like home and where my soul should last. But well, truth is, I know under this shell of mine, if you peel me off, with just enough patience, like I'm an onion, I wanted to root in Malaysia. But I understand that my life is not just about me, there's a mixture of individuals that made me up. I know it may just be another excuse from my 1 million collection of excuses, but I choose to be safe than sorry, if you know what I mean.

So after exams, I have been burning with fire to secure a job before the other May graduates did. I searched online at late nights and bought newspapers to seek for opportunities, even asked every single friend I've met to buzz me whenever there's a vacancy. I was desperate, and I do mean desperately desperate, that I sent over 25 cvs to various companies. And all I get is just a phone call, asking if I'm a Permanent Residence in Brunei, and after I told them that I'm not, they said bye and I never hear from them anymore. Such is the sorrow and unfair treatment. No quota for foreigners for most of the jobs. Some even offered you a job, but with salary that's so low that you literally can just eat bread the whole month to survive. So, I was unemployed for the past 2 months.

It's just weird how I get a job. There's 4 firms that actually wanted me, some pay was not bad but I just don't feel like I belong to their family. But one day, I receive a text from a friend's friend to call her friend for a job. It's usually unusual for me to just call some random guy and went out yamchar with him, alone, and I drove there, alone. It's creepy enough for me to do that. And weeks later when I just lost hope, he called in the middle of my sleep and it's another unusual for me to answer his call but well, I just did. I rushed to shower and changed and drove and reached the company. The next thing I know is, I'm starting work the next morning.

I'm working for KFC Brunei currently and I'm responsible for Rasamas's Accounts. I wouldn't deny if you ask if I'm feeling super stressed. Well, the truth is, I am. The former colleague that's responsible for my position, has just resigned. I am expected to learn what she has done over the past years within 4 and a half day. And I am the only individual to handle the full set accounts. From delivery orders to invoices, from payroll to pensions, from sales to petty cash, from issuing cheques to payment voucher, from reading bank statements to doing bank reconciliation, from operations to hr to purchasing to gm, from doing opening to closing balances, from posting transactions to the system to manual recording, I'm literally everything, everything. I have no written set of rules to follow, so I am expected to be overly and excessively independent. I am given an office, to do things on my own timeline but of course, finish tasks to meet my deadlines. I don't even dare to think of it at times, but really, I've never regretted taking this job. I do enjoy a challenging job and I know my position has granted me great empowerment, but maybe it's just too challenging for a fresh graduate like me? I dare not think that way, cos the more I think, the more I fear. I think it's better for me to believe that I can do it, and I know I will find a way to do it. Therefore, I pray that The Law of Attraction really does work on me this time =)

I believe this post is getting too lengthy. Cos I am lazy already. Till here then Ewen, talk to ya some other time. There's too much to tell if you want me to tell menial happenings, but there may be just too little to tell if all you want is just highlights. So I'll shut up and watch Christmas Carol with my lil brother here.

Loves,

Ewen